At the beginning of COVID in March, I had to consider early retirement because I fit the “high risk category” for COVID, as a first responder. I loved my profession and the new season of gifting the Lord had provided through a huge disappointment and heartbreaking experience, with the loss of my spouse of 20 years to Pancreatic cancer in 2001.
Who would imagine that during this COVID experience, I would find a lump in my breast which would also be cancerous? Well, the question was asked. “what’s God doing in my life?” How much time do you have? No one desires to hear the dreaded “C” word, but what can you do?…
“…we do not lose heart “(2 Cor 4:16),” but we recognize that our earthly bodies are wasting away daily, but our spirit man can be renewed through prayer and the Word of God.
Therefore, I began to pray and asked Pastor Mickey and others to pray for me as well. In January of 2020, I stepped out on faith and started an R-group
with women who were interested in taking a deeper dive through the Gospel of Luke.
Being in an R-group and being intentional about studying God helped me to draw from scripture what I needed to be empowered on this journey. As I began to pray, I remember when Jesus was being tempted in the wilderness for 40 days. He told Satan, “It is written…”, this phrase reminded me that the Word of God would be my offensive weapon, to fight a good fight of faith. Therefore, I began to pray for the strength to receive the sufficiency of God’s Grace (2 Cor 12:8-10) and the strength to accept God’s Will for my life, not mine; no matter the outcome.
On July 14, 2020, I am glad to say that the surgeon was able to remove all the cancer in my left breast and pre-cancerous lesions forming in the right breast. Praise God! God’s Will for healing in my life had manifested in my spirit and now in my physical body.
“…So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me” (2 Cor 12:9) for the continuance of my journey.
Prior to surgery, I had inquired about the Rock School of Ministry (RSOM) and took the necessary steps to enroll
, not realizing classes began a few days after my surgery, therefore, I thought necessary to enroll in the next term.
Well, God had blessed and healed me in such a short time, I chose to inquire again, with an attitude of persistence and heart filled with Joy and gratitude. I knocked at the door of RSOM and Joy opened the door. (I love when God uses metaphors to speak to my heart). Literally, Joy Schneider facilitated the registration process for me. God knew there was something I needed at the RSOM during my recovery phase for the furtherance of my journey.
Prior to entering the RSOM, the Holy Spirit gave me this Word “…when you pray. I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
I will be found by you says the LORD…I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again… (Jeremiah 29:12-14).
I am at home when I’m learning more about God’s principles and promises. His Word stirs my soul bringing rest and peace in my life.
On my first day of class, I was praying and embracing the day filled with God’s new mercies and opportunities, while asking God for a fresh outpouring of His Spirit; to stir up the gifts
that had been lying dormant (healing, writing, prophesying etc.). While I’m listening in class (Discipleship), the Holy Spirit used Pastor Aaron Taylor to bless my socks off. I was clapping and praising God for what I was hearing. It was as if I was standing in the Throne Room of God and He was answering every request I had prayed from earlier that morning and I could feel the gift of healing stirring and leaping in the womb of my spirit; which had been lying dormant. And the next day to my surprise, I received an email to exercise my desire to write. God is sooooo….amazing and I just love Him with all my heart, soul and mind.
During my lifetime; God has shown himself strong in me as a child; who was sick with fever and not getting well with medication. However, when my mother called for the mothers of our church, they prayed over me for what seemed like hours. When they finished, all I remember was springing up from my sick bed, leaping and praising God akin to the lame man who received healing at the Beautiful Gate. (Acts 3:8) Additionally, in my early 20’s, the Holy Spirit told me I was seven weeks pregnant with my first child 1982. During this season in my life, I was a Christian, however not walking in alignment with the Spirit of God but according to the flesh; hence my being akin to doubting Thomas needing proof. I took the test and sure enough, pregnancy confirmed!
I’ve experienced dreams that manifested the natural realm, which caused fear in the past however, now I know it’s’ God’s way of revealing His presence in my life. God has moved in and through me in the past to build my faith and trust in what He is able to do, if I believe.
And currently, He is stirring my gift of healing for His glory.
On September 8, 2020, I drove to my adopted mother’s home to exercise my gift of healing through prayer and out of compassion. She had been told after her MRI results that it was possible, she had cancer in her right Lung. When I entered the home, I Initially encountered the spirit of control and protection. I acknowledged the spirit of protection and indicated we were in unity however, the spirit of control had to be silenced and put at ease, then I could begin to intercede for my mother by God’s spirit.
Praise God, I was able through the power of the Holy Spirit to subdue the spirit of anger, frustration, anxiety and experienced great resistance with the spirit of disappointment. After continuing in warfare with the spirit of disappointment, it relented. I called for the presence of peace and calm to abide in the home. I lifted up a standard through the Holy Spirit in the name of Jesus against anything or anyone that would rise up to hinder mom’s forward progression. I asked the Holy Spirit to shrivel up and cut down the area in her right lung, akin to the fig tree that didn’t produce fruit (Luke 13:6-9). Additionally, I asked that her oxygen levels return to 95% off oxygen, after being in the high 80’s to low 90’s for 20 years on oxygen.
This request is beyond a mustard seed faith however, God said if we asked in faith without wavering nothing would be impossible.
In Romans 4:20-24 it says, “Abraham did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he promised…”
Abraham, the father and model of faith, sets the standard for my faith. Beloved family of God, I’m believing God for a supernatural healing for my mom. I want unbelievers and the family of God to know that God is still working miracles and that He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all we can ask or imagine through the power that is working in us! (Ephesians 3:20)
Please pray with me and thank you for spending this time with me as I share what God is doing in my life.